Bit of a Rant..

​My husband had his final urology appointment about a week back, as we all decided to stop clomid and go for IVF w/ICSI. Last thing they needed to do was another SA to see if clomid had actually improved his sperm count. Of course they never entered the script to the lab. They takes days to return calls. They may be the best in Alaska but they sure as hell are running a shit show when it comes to infertility. We have been so frustrated with thier lack of care and knowledge. It’s exhausting and pathetic honestly.


Working on losing weight

Hubby and I have been working on losing weight. Preparing for our Hawaii trip and IVF w/ICSI. 

Last week hubby weighed 189. He is losing weight fast. I told him he would. He’s very active. He’s military, constantly working. He has a fitbit now and 3 days in a row he has 20K+ steps. Thats without much effort. I’m no competetion!

I always vary, sometimes greatly, so I go by inches. I just got my new fitbit so I’m still trying to balance things out. Plus I’m still recovering from surgery. I’m 2 month post op from a massive hemmoriodectomy and still not healed fully. I’ve improved a great deal! But I’m still hindered. End of this month, I take my 2 months after surgery, and starting to crack down more on fitness. It’s been hard since for 4 weeks, I couldn’t get out of bed. My goal is 140-150 overall but I’m looking for inches lost then focusing on strength building. So here’s my before!

Discussing female stuff!

This is not exactly growing family related. It is about periods! So if you can’t handle talking or reading about aunt flow, I suggest to stop reading here!

Many years ago, I stopped taking birth control. Like over 5 years ago, I stopped Depo Provera injections. While on it for almost 2 years, I gained weight, terrible mood swings, and worst of all developed an extremely heavy period and lots of cramping. So I’ve been combating extreme aunt flow for quite a few years. There is nothing wrong with me fertility wise. I develop a perfect lining every month, my body just rapidly expels the fluid. The worst part is, the blood clots. I often have very large clots and have spoken to the doctors many times about it. They have always said, “It’s ok”. My clots are often the size of a half dollar. That’s not ok.. Luckily over time the terrible cramps though have gone away. The first 3 days I normally double up on pads and tampons. If you are a heavy flow girl.. I understand your pain. Also every cycle, I develop irritation in my urethra, I believe from the tampons and pads. It’s every cycle like clockwork. I often have a UTI after my period.

Recently I stumbled across menstrual cups like diva and lunette (?). I searched and searched thinking, “No! That’s crazy. I’m not going to put a cup up there.” Yet here I am. I had so many questions.. 

How much blood do I really lose? 

Is it actually a heavy flow or am I crazy?

Could tampons be causing my blood clots?

Could the tampons or pads be causing my AF related UTIs and irritation?

Are there really chemicals in tampons and pads? Do we absorb them? (This I still don’t have a straight answer to so I’m rolling with yes, since materials are often treated with chemicals.)

How the fudge pops am I going to get it out?

Finally after my last cycle I figured.. Why not try it? So I bought the diva cup for  $22, size 1 pre-birth, as I’ve never given birth and I am under 30. I got my period a few days later so it came just in time, thank you amazon. I read alot of the ins and outs online and scoped out youtube for all the tips I could find as well. Like rotate the cup to check the seal, different fold types, cleaning, removal and so on. My own tip is… keep short nails!

I’m finishing up day 3, I have lost/counted 47.5mL of fluid lost. That’s not exactly heavy but it is higher then what some doctors may consider normal. Also I’m only on day 3 as I said BUT it’s almost the end of the day and my cup has had nothing in it for 6 hours. I haven’t had a single blood clot these 3 days either. Not one. My guess is the tampons were making them, by drying all of the liquid (including natural non-blood vajayjay fluids) leaving what’s left to coagulate and form those very large clots. I also have only had one day of irritation. That was after my use of a tampon because I was going out for the day and didn’t trust in the cup. Once it was time to change the tampon, I put back in the diva cup. Anything leak wise was because either I had just put the diva cup in or it was because it was full. It’s only been 3 days, but I don’t think I could ever go back to pad and tampons again. I’ll still use panty liners but pair them with my diva cup!

Urologist Check Up

His urologist appointment was today. The first thing they did was.. 

Guess what?

Draw blood!

*eye roll* 

So after discussing it with the Urologist, he agreed if the count hasn’t gone up and hubby is starting to feel unwell, then it’s time to stop using clomid to attempt to treat his male infertility. We all believe IVF w/ICSI may be our best treatment. We’re continuing on with saving for IVF w/ICSI but placing it into the back of our minds for now. The doctor told us he knows people who can get us in for trials to make it cheaper, and to let him know when we’re ready, but it’s a flight across country. We will see where we will be led next. 

We will still not use any protection and keep up with our wellness plans. He will have a semen analysis sometime next week. I will post those results and anything else I get in time. I’ll answer an questions if someone has them! He has been on clomid for 7 months now, so we have a good idea of the process.

Urologist Appointment Tomorrow

Tomorrow hubby will be having his urologist appointment. He’s beginning to feel unwell and is considering stopping the clomid for his male infertility. He should be having a semen analysis and bloodwork done sometime soon. The office was refusing to do either before his check up which makes no sense is our eyes. You should have results before you do a check up.

But so that is tomorrow. I should start working in September. We’re going to begin saving. We decided that we will save for about 5 years and then do IVF w/ICSI. We’ve spent our twenties trying to expand our family by either birth or by adoption. We’re not sure if we want to roll into our 30s with still struggling to do one single, should be simple thing. We’d rather place it into the back of our minds, for now at least and enjoy life a bit. We shall see.

Here we go..

Had an interview today and I think it went very well. I was told if chosen, I’d start at $12 build to $15, and likely work 20-40 a week. Which is perfect especially since I can walk to the building and won’t need to buy a car. So if I work at least 20 hours a week, then next year this time, we might have our IVF w/ICSI fund filled. At a military treatment facility, IVF w/ICSI is running just under 8K currently. Hubbies urologist needs to be pushed back, they called to reschedule go figure. Hopefully still by the end of August we will know if clomid worked for him!! Again he’s been on clomid for 7 full months.

Extended Background..

My husband and I have been ttc since Jan 2012. I have had 2 miscarriages, Dec. 2011 (6 weeks) and Nov. 2014 (4 weeks). After 2 years of trying, we began seeking medical help. After fighting for testing and the referral with military clinics, we found out I had a small polyp. They didn’t believe it was large enough to prevent pregnancy and I had that removed (maybe) May 2014.

By fall Oct. 2014, we discovered the issue was most likely male infertility. From 2014 to now in 2016, he has had varying uncontrollable T levels unless there was a lab mix up (280-800). He has had count vary extremely (<2-18mil/mL). He has had motility vary greatly (5-60%). So basically everything is erratic over the years.

After moving to Alaska, he consulted a new physician because of a lump he found above his testicle. It’s a stone in his spermatic cord. If may still be a blockage and we have no way to know with a vasogram. He recieved a second urologist that agreed that clomid was at least worth an opportunity as from moving here Nov. 2015 through Jan. 2016 his T (low 300s), count (5-9mil/mL), and motility (50-60%) seemed to have stabilized.

Second week of January 2016, he started taking clomid 25mg 25 days on/5 days off. By end of April it was confirmed his T did indeed increase, I believe to 700s but sperm had not increased in any manner.

In May/June we did a cycle of IUI and we had a horrible experience with the office. They botched my bloodwork, charged me for it anyway even though they said they wouldn’t, they didn’t properly monitor my blood levels, left his sperm sit in the incubator for 2 hours, lied about being able to give us sperm pre and post wash numbers before the IUI and so on. So we decided no more IUIs in Alaska. They also did not follow insurance protocols and now I’m stuck having to pay for a SIS that I shouldn’t need to pay for. We will save for IVF w/ICSI to do once we leave Alaska. We’ve wasted enough at thier office.

Now August, he has been on clomid 7 full months. He has a check up with the urologist and by the end of August we should know if his sperm has improved.